My rating: 3 of 5 stars
“True nobility isn’t about being better than anyone else; it’s about being better than you used to be.”
"Yes, Ma. I am better.”
I am better than I used to be.
This was a painful, candid look into Portia's battle with her eating disorder that last for nearly twenty years of her life. At first, it seems like a "normal" thing as a model and later actor. She'd skipped meals and/or work extra hard for anything that required she put her body on display. Her disorder also seemed for a cry for attention, as she admitted that thrived off the energy people would give her due to her weight. At her lowest weight she was 82 lbs.
It takes a lot for someone to show so much of their soul. And while I'm certainly sure she told this story to put it all out there, to face this long, dangerous part of her life, I wished there'd been more time spent on her recovery rather than trying to sum it up in a little epilogue that glossed over things. Too much of this book is triggering and teeming with ideas that someone with an eating disorder or even flirting with one might try to practice while spending nearly no time chronicling Portia's fight back to health. Like I said, a wonderfully candid book that I wished had shown more of the recovery process rather than spending over 2/3rds of the book giving excruciating detail of how she made this disorder "work."
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